Thursday, December 26, 2013

A tickle from hell

That moment when you have a sleeping baby on your chest, and a tickle in your throat. Then you start to panic as you turn blue from trying to suppress the cough that is inevitable, as to not wake to baby. Your eyes start to water, as you quickly sip some water. IT'S NOT HELPING!!!!!

Maybe just a little cough? Just to take the edge off. Then I can sneak some Christmas chocolate to smooth out the rest...don't judge.

Who was I kidding. It just caused a hacking fit, woke the baby. She gave me a really dirty look.






I peed myself.

Wordless Wednesday (a day late, and only because I have no energy to do a real post)

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Rough days

I have been having a hard few days, let's make that a hard week, emotionally. I'm not quite sure why, but it sucks. I've been more moody than usual, and taking it out on others. I've also been sleeping way too much, which I hate. Let's face it. I'm depressed. Is it postpartum depression? God, I hope not. But I have a suspicion it might be.

Sweet Pea has been extra cranky lately, which isn't helping. I think she's seriously teething. I've found myself snapping at her, which is horrible. She's 6 months old, she doesn't know what I'm saying. That's when I knew I needed to reach out for help.

I called my mom and asked if she would like to go for a drive with me, while Mister stayed with Sweet Pea. I'm still not comfortable with anyone else watching her. She, of course said yes, and came right over.

When she got got here she had some goodies for me! She brought me some Wen shampoo, and other products! We then hopped in the car and went to Bed Bath & Beyond, Craft Warehouse and then the Carter's outlet. Carter's was having a good sale so she went a little crazy on baby clothes. Retail therapy is good for the soul. I needed to get out of the house so badly. And I had a few things I needed to exchange at Carter's anyway. I appreciate it so much.

When we got home Sweet Pea was literally jumping up and down, she was so excited to see me. I missed her too! I gave her lots of kisses. Then came bedtime...She was tired. I could see it. But instead of going to sleep she melted down. I mean like a nuclear melt down. She screamed for an hour, and then vomited until she turned purple. I had to give her a bath because she smelled so bad of rotten milk, but she screamed through that too.

I finally got her dressed in a clean pair of jammies, and Mister bounced her on the exercise ball. She was asleep in 30 seconds. I then decided to utilize this sleeping baby time, and run through the shower. Did I forget to mention the vomit was on me, and my hair? Perfect excuse to use my new shampoo. Nice timing kid. It's awesome by the way. The next day, my hair wasn't frizzy!

Also, when I had my placenta encapsulated, I paid extra for a tincture. The lady never gave it to me! It was supposed to be ready in 12 weeks. Sweet Pea is nearly 7 months now.... I've contacted her several times. She wanted me to drive way the hell out to wherever she lives to pick it up, so I asked her to mail it. She said it would be an extra $5.00! So we sent her another $5.00, and haven't heard anything since. Her business Facebook page says they aren't taking any new clients for 8 weeks, due to births. Well, I'm an existing client. I want a full refund, including the $5.00. I've had my mom contact her a few times too, she's going to call her tomorrow. I'm sure the tincture would have come in handy this past week.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Letters to Sweet Pea 6.5 months

Dear Sweet Pea,

These months have just flown by. On one hand, it seems like you were born just yesterday. On the other, I can't remember what life was like before you made our family whole. Each day is precious, even the stressful ones, because you're in it.

You rarely cry, unless you're tired or hungry. You eat about 6oz at a time now! And what was once thrashing around to find the bottle's nipple, has been replaced with this adorable puckering of the lips, followed by some tongue thrusting.

For a while, you wouldn't let anyone but mommy feed you, not even daddy! But now that you're older, and wiser, you eat just fine for daddy, and are even letting grandma feed you an ounce or two now ans then.

You've just started trying solid food, and you're not too sure about it. You had a horrible reaction to sweet potatoes, but you really enjoyed playing with an apple! You've also tried grapes and banana too, I think apples were your favorite.

You sleep through the night completely now! We go to bed around 10:30PM and you sleep until 9:30AM! Both daddy and I are very happy about this.
You still sleep with mommy every night, which I love! I love getting to fall asleep to your sweet baby smell. For a while, you were putting your hand over your face as you fell asleep during naps, and would caress/slap my face as you fell asleep in bed. Then that turned into rubbing my chest as you fell asleep, both during naps and at bed time. Now you like to have a blanket right up against your face, which makes mommy very nervous.

You have developed so much, in such a short amount of time! You're officially a mobile baby. We can't put you on the floor and leave the room anymore. You roll all over the place! Just today, you rolled over to your toy basket, and dumped out all your toys! Then you played with them for a good 45 minutes. Your all time favorite toy is your jumperoo. You just love jumping in it. If we're out of the house too long, and you don't get to jump, you go through withdrawals.

You used to love bath time, but since it's gotten colder, you throw complete fits whenever try to give you a bath in your old tub. It's heartbreaking, So I've been filling the kitchen sink with warm water and bathing you that way. You're not too sure about it, but it keeps you from crying, and you get clean.

You are the most social baby I've ever seen! You love when complete strangers talk to you, you just give them the biggest grin. You absolutely love visiting family! You will let anyone hold you. You bring so much joy to so many lives.

You have been talking so much! Whenever you want to be picked up, or if you're upset, you say "Mama mama!" And just recently when you're happy and in a good mood, you will shout out, "dadda! dadda!" Your main communication remains to be raspberries, and that's ok, we love it!

We are getting ready to celebrate your first Christmas, and I can't wait! I also can't believe how fast this time has gone by. You are the light of our lives. We love you so much Sweet Pea!

Monday, December 2, 2013

Good thing we call her "Poops"

Last week we went to dinner at my dad and step mom's, for my dad's birthday. My grandparents were there too. It was delicious. Sweet Pea had fun, and even tried a tiny amount of sweet potato. She didn't seem too impressed. She kind of just stared at all of us like we were nuts. But she swallowed it, probably just to be polite.

We went on about our evening. Sweet Pea charmed everyone, as she tends to do. My step mom even got several giggles out of her! At one point, my step mom had Sweet Pea on her lap, and one of their cats got a little jealous. Not in an angry way, but in an, I'm going to come sit on this lap too, just so you're clear it belongs to me, way. Sweet Pea was very interested. She grabbed right on to his fur and pulled. I of course got nervous, and the cat started purring!

We passed Sweet Pea to my dad, and she started fussing, which is not like her. I tried to feed her, but she was super distracted, so we went downstairs, where it was quiet. She ate, and I tried to give her back to my dad, but she fussed again. So we decided to have cake.

Sweet Pea sat in her highchair and held hands with my grandma, as she pooped. (Sweet Pea! Not my grandma. That would be quite awkward.

Mister wanted to wait to change her until we got home, because she was tired and cranky. That just wasn't going to work. I laid her down, unbuttoned her adorable new outfit my aunt had just bought for her, and pulled back her diaper. She might as well have not been wearing a diaper!! It went all the way up her back! I started pulling out wipes, there were only 2! Sh!t! Literally!! I asked my step mom for some paper towels. As she was getting those, I peeled off Sweet Pea's brand new, now stinky poo covered outfit, and set it to the side just out of reach.

My step mom then came back with paper towels and Charmin moist towelettes. Perfect! Those are like big people wipes! I got her all cleaned off, and laid her back down. While I was looking for her change of clothes, Sweet Pea started squirming and fussing again, so Mister handed her her blanket to play with. Only, it wasn't her blanket. It was her poopy clothes!!!! She had poop on "all over" her face! (In reality, it was only by her eye and mouth. But.....It's POOP!) I cleaned her up and went back to looking for her change of clothes.

Why couldn't I find her clothes?! Oh, because I used them when I changed her at JCPenny's after her 6 month pictures, and forgot to put new clothes in the diaper bag! All I had in there was a zip up hoodie and a blanket. Bad mom award given to...ME!! On it went, and out the door we went.

She fell asleep on the way home, but once we got home, it all went to hell. She woke up, and screamed for two hours straight. Nothing we did would calm her down. Towards the end of this scream fest, she threw up 3 separate times! Projectile, I might add. All over the changing table, and then herself, and then the duvet cover. While projectile vomiting, she would start choking, so we would panic.

Also, either the wipes or the sweet potatoes gave Sweet Pea a rash on her back.

We are now officially waiting for her to start solids.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Thankful November, Day 26

November 26, 2013

I'm thankful for our heat pump.
Over the last several years, we weren't able to afford to run our heat very high in the winter. (59*)
And you could forget about air conditioning. 
But right after Sweet Pea was born, my mom bought us a heat pump and had it installed.
It was like heaven!
We were able to keep it at a cool 72* all summer, and a so far we've been able to keep it at a warm 68* this autumn.
The air conditioning part of it, raised our electric bill $27, which was totally worth it! And doable.
And the cost of running it nearly 10* warmer in the autumn, is about the same price as it was last year!
It's so great having this thing with Sweet Pea around, we couldn't keep it that cold with her in the house.
And it was reaching 100* in the summer here.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Thankful November, Day 25

November 25, 2013

I'm thankful for former friends.
I've had a few really crappy friends in my life, and I'm grateful for them.
Why you ask? Because, having them in my live makes me aware of what to look for in people, to make sure I never have those type of people in my life again.
 It also makes really appreciate the good ones I still have left.
They've also made me realize my self worth.
Made me realize that I don't need trash like them in my life. 
I have true gems in my heart. 
And for that, I'm truly thankful.  

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Thankful November, Day 24

November 24, 2013

I'm thankful for crocheting.
Can you tell I'm running out of ideas yet? How sad is that?
I have an online friend who is super creative and talented with her crocheting abilities.
In fact, you should go check out her page and show her some love. 
Anyway, she taught herself how to crochet, while raising two small adorable boys.
And inspired me to teach myself to do the same.
I wanted to make Sweet Pea a Cabbage Patch wig for Halloween.
This friend was such a huge help. 
So really, I'm thankful for this friend lol

But crocheting in general is great too.
It's cheap, if you buy the inexpensive yarn. And barrow the hooks from your mom.
I'm progressing alright, I suppose.
I made a slipper. 
Just one. LOL
I got side tracked and forgot what size hook I used.
It's fun, try it.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Happy half birthday Sweet Pea!

We went for Sweet Pea's 6 month well child check up Thursday. I was less than impressed with the visit. She informed us that we need to put our 6 month old daughter, get this, on a diet! She wants us to cut back her formula, and give her 3 bottles of water a day! She also wants us to give her rice cereal, which is nothing but baby junk food that has trace amounts of arsenic in it. Sweet Pea weighs 20 lbs, she's a chunk, but she's perfect. I will not have people, and that includes doctors, tell her that she's fat.

The doctor also wanted us to give Sweet Pea fluoride. That will never, ever happen. There's fluoride in toothpaste, so when she gets teeth, and we brush her teeth, that will be enough. Ingesting fluoride is extremely unhealthy for anyone, why would I give it to my baby?! When we declined it, the doctor looked at Sweet Pea and said, "I tried baby. I'm so sorry." Excuse me? Undermine much? The only reason we don't switch doctors is because we're afraid the next one would be worse. But other than stupid useless doctors, Sweet Pea is wonderful, and healthy.

As I said, she weighs 20 lbs (85th%) 17.5 inch head (97th%) and 27 inches long (45th% I think) At the end of every undermining visit, the doctor says how perfect Sweet Pea is. Well, duh. I know how perfect she is!

A couple of weeks ago we captured her perfectness at JCPenny's. We included my parents on both sides for Christmas pictures, as well as my Grandparents. They turned out amazing! We're keeping the ones with the family to ourselves, because they may or may not be given out as gifts. But here are some of just Miss Pea.

 She has grown and changed so much. And I know that it's a major cliche, but it seems like she just arrived yesterday, but at the same time, I can't remember a time that she wasn't here. And we officially have a mobile baby! She rolls everywhere! She's working on crawling, but we've still got a ways to go. I think she'll be a roller for a while, like her oldest cousin was when she was a baby.

 We gave her a bite of mashed potatoes a couple of nights ago, because Mister just couldn't wait any longer. She looked at us like we were nuts. She is just not ready for food yet. I knew it in my gut, but no one would listen. She didn't gag or choke, but she's just not interested, and she's doing just fine on her milkies as of right now. Mother really does know best.
I love this picture. Seeing how tiny she was, and how much she's grown. It also makes me a little sad. It's all happening so fast. I'm so blessed that I got this chance to have this amazing, beautiful, bright little girl. I'm the luckiest mommy alive. And I will be one of those moms that continuously gushes about their kids. My kid and my husband are my life. My life will always revolve around them.

This is the picture Sweet Pea is holding. She was such a tiny little squish!

Thankful November, Day 23

November 23, 2013

I'm thankful for our Playtex Ventaire bottles.
When Sweet Pea was a tiny newborn, she had a lot of gas problems. 
We originally used basic glass bottles. 
But poor Sweet Pea screamed for hours due to a lactose sensitivity. 
So we switched formulas as well, which was a big help.
But the bottles played a big roll.
There are a lot of parts to wash, but it's totally worth it! 
I'm sure any vented bottle works great, but for us, these bottles were a total life saver!! 

Friday, November 22, 2013

Thankful November, Day 22

November 22, 2013

I'm thankful for Similac sensitive formula.
I'm a huge supporter of breast feeding. I truly believe that if you are able to, you should breastfeed your baby. Breast is best.
I however, am not able to breastfeed Sweet Pea, due to a medication issue. So we formula feed.
We were given Enfamil formula before Sweet Pea was born, a whole case of it. That's also what the hospital gave us. So that's what we fed her the first several weeks of her life.
In those first several weeks of her life, she cried screamed. A lot. 
She would turn purple she cried screamed so much.
She also vomited. A LOT.
We took her to the doctor, and they labeled her with colic. 
They also said she may have a lactose sensitivity.
We switched her to Enfamil Gentlease. That helped quite a bit. but she still screamed.
But when we went into WIC, they wouldn't give us and Enfamil. So we went to Similac.
Once we switched to Similac sensitive, all the problems seemed to go away! 
The screaming, the vomiting (for the most part) It was like the a whole new baby.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Thankful November, Day 21

November 21, 2013

I got this at Mommycon, back in September, and I completely forgot about it. Until recently.
Our family has been under a lot of  stress lately.
This spray has been a minor life savor.
It smells of heavenly ginger, and is 100% free of toxins.
I spray some in the air before bed, and a little on my pillow.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Thankful November, Day 20

November 20, 2013

I'm thankful for government run programs, like WIC
WIC isn't just for low income families, the're a great recourse for breastfeeding as well.
Our local WIC office offers breastfeeding classes, lactation support, and pump rental.
I'm not able to breastfeed Sweet Pea, due to a medication issue.
We happen to be low income, so WIC helps us buy fresh fruits and veggies, and formula for Sweet Pea. 
Starting next month, they'll also be giving us baby food.
However, we're planning on practicing baby led weaning, instead of feeding her purees.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Thankful November, Day 19

November 19, 2013

I'm thankful I made it through the day.
Yesterday was a very hard day.
Mister got a call, very early in the morning about his dad, and had to leave.
I had Sweet Pea all day by myself.
She was not in a  good mood.
When Mister came home, he needed a nap, so I had Sweet Pea for most of the evening by myself.
Again, she was NOT in a good mood.
Mister got up, I fed Sweet Pea her dinner time bottle.
She puked on me.
I went to bed tired and defeated. 

Monday, November 18, 2013

Thankful November, Day 18

November 18, 2013

I'm thankful for the FIL's caregivers.
He's got dementia, on top of Parkinson's.
He was never a very nice man, but the dementia has turned him into a giant arse.
His caregivers put up with a lot of crap, and I'm thankful they do.
So we don't.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Thankful November, Day 17

November 17, 2013

I'm thankful for my Mom, Dad and Mister.
For working SO incredibly hard on installing our new washer and dryer. 
And I'm EXTRA thankful for my mom for buying us a brand new dryer! 
We were originally going to get her old washer, from 2008 and her dryer from 1990. 
But when we tried to install the dryer it wouldn't work for one reason or another.
So my mom bought us a brand new one!
My dad came over today to help Mister install it!
They're both up and running today!

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Thankful November, Day 16

November 16, 2013

I'm thankful for co-sleeping.
I get to snuggle up to my Sweet Pea every night.
Without it, I would lose my mind.
I had every intention of having her sleep in a crib, but she wouldn't sleep anywhere but my arms. 
I fall asleep each night, to the sweet smell of Sweet Pea's head, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Friday, November 15, 2013

Thankful November, Day 15

November 15, 2013

I'm thankful for my placenta!
Most of you know I encapsulated my placenta.
It still comes in handy!
When I'm having a hard day, or having bad anxiety, I just pop a couple placenta pills and I'm feeling much better within 30 minutes. 
I also have a tincture on its way to me as we speak. 
We had some communication issues. 
I highly recommend it to every pregnant woman!

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Thankful November, Day 14

November 14, 2013 

I'm thankful for Big Lots.
Money is extremely tight.
But Big Lots has a great toy aisle for babies, with toys ranging from $3-$10.
We were able to buy Sweet Pea quite a few presents for Christmas.
It's going to be a great first Christmas!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Thankful November, Day 13

November 13, 2013

I'm thankful for the BIL and SIL.
I'm very sad that they moved all the way across the country.
I feel horribly guilty about not telling them about Sweet Pea sooner.
They're going to be sending a box of clothes for her soon.
I miss them and the twins, not to mention the older kids like crazy!
It was great to hear Mister talk to his brother for a good hour the other day. 
Whenever they get together, it's like they're kids again. I love seeing that.
Mister has been really down in the dumps since his brother left.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013


I miss being pregnant so much! The thing I miss most about being pregnant is feeling Sweet Pea move. I didn't have the easiest pregnancy, but I would do it again in a heartbeat. It makes me sad that I probably won't ever get the chance to do it again.

I was just thinking about this last night. I was thinking about how I missed everything, except the excruciating SPD. But then I thought, no...I miss that too. Because it was apart of my pregnancy. It was proof that something was happening, that my body was changing and that there was a baby growing inside of me.

OK. I can think of ONE thing I don't miss. But it was just in the beginning of the pregnancy. I had to come off my anxiety medicine, and it was hell. It was SO bad that I haven't gone back on it since having Sweet Pea, in fear of ever having to go off of it again.

I have dreams of feeling a baby moving from the outside of my belly.

The only regret I have about my entire pregnancy is not having pictures done. I only have 2 pictures of my belly, and they're crappy cell phone pictures. I just felt so fat (extra fat) and unattractive, and thought I didn't even look pregnant. I wish I had documented each stage a little better.

Thankful November, Day 12

November 12, 2013

I'm thankful for water
Yes. Water.
I'm beginning to count my calories again, and watch what I eat, and water helps with that.
Whenever I get hungry, I have a large glass of water, and I'm no longer hungry. 
I still have 5 small meals a day, but drink a ridiculous amount of water with it.
When I did this a couple years ago, I was able to lose 70+ lbs!
I want to do that again, but even more.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Thankful November, Day 11

November 11, 2013

I'm thankful for my Mei Tai BabyHawk
Sweet Pea is getting heavy. And long. 
We're not able to lug her around in her car seat anymore. 
I love having her close to me, and the BabyHawk is perfect for that,
I can wear her on my front, back, or even my hip.
A woman in a local babywearing group I belong to on Facebook told me about a consignment store that had it on sale, so I got it for an amazing deal. 
I'm going to start keeping it in the car, so I can just strap her to me when we go to stores.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Thankful November, Day 10

November 10, 2013

I'm thankful for the "new" washer and dryer we're getting.
My mom is buying a new washer and dryer, so she's giving us her old one!
Our current washer leaves a weird residue on some of our clothes, and I hate it.
Our current dryer has to be run twice in order for our clothes to actually get dry.
When we moved in here, the washer and dryer were newer, and we asked them to leave them. 
They switched them with really old ones from the early 80's, if not older!
Our new washer is a front loader, we'll have to leave the door open, but it's worth it.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Thankful November, Day 9

November 9, 2013

I'm thankful for nap time
Without nap time, I wouldn't be able to get anything done.
Usually, Sweet Pea only sleeps for 30-45 minutes at a time.
But every once in a while, she'll nap for 2 hours and I don't know what to do with myself.
Today during nap time, I planned on folding laundry, and putting clean dishes away, but I find myself crocheting instead. 

Most of the time I hold Sweet Pea while she sleeps.
She will most likely be out only Pea, and will only be this little for a while.
The only other place she will sleep is her swing.
I don't know what we'll do when she out grows it. 

Friday, November 8, 2013

Thankful November, Day 8

November 8, 2013

I'm thankful for my mother.
I was horrible to my mom growing up. But she never gave up on me.
She has been there for me, whenever I've needed her. 
She was our biggest support, while I was pregnant with Sweet Pea.
She is an amazing grandma.
She makes it a point to see Sweet Pea, at least once a week.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Thankful November, Day 7

November 7, 2013

I'm thankful for my dad.
I've always been a daddy's girl
Not many people know this, but I almost lost my dad about 7 years ago. 
He had a blood clot in his leg, that moved to his lungs.
I was having a very rough time, mentally. And did not treat him well.
He forgave me, and never stopped loving me.
He's always been there for me, even at my craziest. 
I put him through the ringer as a teenager, but he's always been understanding.  
He lights up, every time he sees Sweet Pea.
And the best grandpa Sweet Pea could ask for.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Thankful November, Day 6

November 6, 2013

I'm thankful for my friends.
I don't have many friends, in real life.
Most of my friends are online friends.
I had to weed through a few bad apples, but the ones that stayed are amazing.
All of them have been there for me through a lot of rubbish.
They have stood up for me, when I needed it most.
Even when they were ostracized for it.
And I will always be there for them.
I love you ladies.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Thankful November, Day 5

November 5, 2013
I'm thankful for my family.
I have a smallish immediate family, but a pretty large extended family.
We're a loud, close-knit family. 
When one of us gets the giggles, none of us are safe. 
There's always too much food on the holidays, but it's always delicious.
I grew up with my cousins as my best friends, and they still are.
As the family grows, it's getting harder to get everyone together, but I'd like to think we will always remain close.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Thankful November, Day 4

November 4, 2013
I'm thankful for the food on our table
I'm thankful everyday, that I don't need to worry about whether or not we'll be able to eat that day.
Sweet Pea will never go hungry, and for that, I'm grateful. 

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Thankful November, Day 3

November 3, 2013
I'm thankful for having a roof over my head
We don't have a lot of money, but we are lucky enough to have a roof over our heads.
4 years ago we sold the house we were living in, and bought a mobile home.
We pay a monthly space rent, but we now have a stable home that we can afford to live in. 
And we're truly lucky to have it.
Home is where the heart is. And we have a home filled with love.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Thankful November, Day 2

November 2, 2013
 I'm thankful for Mister. 
He has been there for me through thick and thin.
He supports me in anything I want to do, and he loves me unconditionally. 
He is an amazing father to Sweet Pea. I love seeing them together.
We are so lucky to have him in our lives.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Thankful November, Day 1

I'm hoping I can keep up with this throughout the month. Some may be a few days late, but I'll play catch up if I have to.

November 1, 2013
I am thankful for my beautiful Sweet Pea.
She is my world.
I never thought I'd get to have children, so Sweet Pea is a true blessing.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

5 Month update

Sweet Pea is now 5 months old! I can't believe it. It's so much fun to see how she's grown over the months, in past pictures. (1 month2 months3 months4 months ) She's learning new things every minute of the day. She's still working on rolling from her back to belly, but nearly got it last night. She grabs everything she sees now, and it goes straight in the mouth. She grabbed my bowl the other day, and nearly spilled my cereal/milk all over both of us. She watches my every move while I'm eating. She's very curious, but nowhere near ready for solids of any kind. We may wait an extra month, seeing as how she's thriving just fine on her milkies.

She loves to stand up, while we hold her. She gets so excited whenever we clap for her. And she loves to blow raspberries! It's how she communicates. We'll do it to her, and then she'll answer back. I'm trying to introduce baby sign language into our daily lives, but I keep forgetting to do it.

She's full of smiles, but we rarely get giggles from her. We have to act like complete fools to get her adorable laughs, but if we do the same thing we did last week to make her laugh, she looks at us like we're nuts.

She arches her back if she's not happy now. If she doesn't want to be held, she'll wiggle and squirm and then arch her back to get away. This is also how she almost made it to her belly, from her back.

She's mainly wearing 6-9 month clothes now. A few 3-6 month onesies will fit, but she's been in bigger jammies for a few weeks now. Her weight gain has slowed down a bit. Which is just fine because, she's growing up waaaay too fast!

Saturday, October 26, 2013

What we've been up to (Photo drop)

 We went to the pumpkin patch.  It was a little lack luster of a place, but we still had fun. We didn't get a pumpkin, but we did get fresh, warm caramel corn!  Sweet Pea enjoyed herself, and that's why we went.

A couple of weekends ago, we went over to my dad and step-mom's house for dinner. Mister and I for got her Bumbo, to sit in while we eat. We also forgot to bring any toys. I ate one handed. We had lots of fun.

We visit my mom almost every weekend. Last week she had a kitchen fire, so we couldn't go in the house because of the smoke. By the weekend it was better. Sweet Pea was going crazy with this packing paper. Who needs toys?
 We blew up my birthing ball, from when I was pregnant. Sweet Pea loves it!! We play with it several times a day, and I've even caught Mister bouncing around on it.
Sweet Pea has been practicing sitting up too! She looks thrilled, doesn't she? She still falls over pretty quickly, but she's getting better at it. 
           She has been a great sport while I've been making her Halloween costume. I'm glad I'm done now, so I can go back to cuddling my Pea.                    
We went and visited my Grandparents on Thursday. My Grandma loves holding Sweet Pea, and I love seeing them together. I'm going to have to watch her closely though, she really wants to give Sweet Pea a Hershey's bar!                                  

I tried to do Sweet Pea's 5 month pictures today, but it just wasn't working. She was fussy, the light was wrong, and she kept grabbing the blankets. Another day maybe.
Sweet Pea's costume! Seriously, how cute is she?? It makes all the stress and tears worth it. Yes. Tears. I didn't know how to crochet before I made this, and I'm not a fast learner. I have a friend that was helping me through Facebook. I looked at videos, and got it wrong. After my friend took pictures of her doing it, I picked it up pretty quick. And look how cute she is!!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Sweet Pea force push (video)

This kid cracks me up!

Baby pattern baldness

Where did Sweet Pea's hair go?

 She had so much hair when she was born, and when she was teeny tiny. People used to comment on how thick and beautiful it was. Now look at her. I mean, she's the cutest thing I've ever seen...but I'm seeing quite a bit more scalp these days. I didn't even notice until we were at my mom's and looking at older pictures of Sweet Pea.

This isn't a real update. There will be one soon, I promise.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Sweet Pea sitting (video)

Sweet Pea is growing so fast. She's working so hard on sitting up on her own. 

I'll have a better update later. I've been busy trying to make Sweet Pea's Halloween costume. It's gonna be cute!!

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Thank goodness for my placenta

Today has been a rough day. I will be ending this day with a few placenta pills.

And I'm in tears again.

This morning started out like any other. Actually, it started a little nicer. Mister got up with Sweet Pea, leaving me an hour plus to sleep by myself. He then brought her in at about 10:15AM, left, and came back with some heart breaking news. Lucy, our mama bunny, had passed away during the night.

I didn't really believe him. I just kept saying, "no, no, no". I may have been a bit dramatic, but our bunnies are our babies too.

 We got Bunjie first, when he was 6 weeks old. *On the left* He was so lonely, so we got Lucy. They made many, many babies, Whitey being one of them. She *Whitey* nearly died at birth, and we had to give her kitten formula to save her. Needless to say, we were attached, so we kept her. She's the middle one.

When Mister took Lucy out of their "cage" today, Bunjie bumped her trying to wake her up, and pulled on her fur. Lucy is his person. Both Whitey and Bunjie have been sitting in the spot where Mister found her, all day. It's heartbreaking.

We're not sure what happened. We've only had her 5.5 years, and they're supposed to live around 10 years. We got her from a breeder, and we did catch her in a few lies, so who knows if she was telling the truth about her age.

It has been a very sad day around our house, full of tears and hugs. I'm just glad Sweet Pea is too young to understand what's going on.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

What we've been up to

I just realized that I've been neglecting this blog a little. That's only because I've been spending all my waking hours with my sweet, Sweet Pea. That's a good reason, no?

Lately I've been doing a lot of one handed typing, which makes for a lot of typos and grammatical errors. Right now, my little Pea is napping on my left knee and leaning against my chest. So, bear with me while I stumble through this post.

Last weekend, Sweet Pea and I went to MommyCon, and it was amazing!! I got to hear Jessica from The Leaky Boob speak, as well as the creator of Birth Without Fear, January. January was inspiring, but Jessica's presentation on normalizing breastfeeding was fantastic!! She made the great point of the fact that we're trying to normalize, babies eating. How ridiculous is that?

Anyway, we also learned about car seat safety and baby proofing. There were a few booths around the venue, and we got some goodies throughout the day. My mom was going to buy me a starter pack of baby products from Earth Mama Angel Baby, and they gave me the pack as a gift! They're an all natural, organic and free of toxins company. I am now the proud user of angel baby oilangel baby lotion,angel baby shampoo and body wash and angel baby bottom balm. They smell pretty amazing, but not harsh either.

At the end of the convention, Jamie Grayson, also known as The Baby Guy, came up and gave some awesome things away. I won an Ergo for me and a doll carrier for Sweet Pea when she's a little older. Unfortunately, the Ergo is not meant for mama's with this much fluff, so /i'm not going to be able to use it. I'm going to sell it I think, and buy some other baby things.

I also got to meet a few friends from Facebook that I've been talking to for a while. One very generous friend gave Sweet Pea a bag of clothes! It was very much appreciated. It was a lot of fun getting to meet women I've been talking to for a couple years, and their babies. There were so many babies there! We even saw a 14 day old, I forgot babies were that small at one time.

We just had Sweet Pea's 4 month check up, and she's doing great. She's 17.13 lbs and reaching all her milestones right on track, if not before. She's working really hard on sitting up. She's liked us holding her in the sitting position since she was itty bitty, but now she strains to sit up by herself. She's been rolling from her belly to her back since she was 5 weeks, now we're working on her rolling from her back to her belly. She has a little nubbin of a tooth coming in on the bottom left. I can't see anything, but I can feel it. And she chews on everything! Not to mention the drool. Oh the drool!!

Sweet Pea got her first diaper rash. We got down to our last pack of diapers from baby shower, and they were a store brand. We think Sweet Pea was allergic to them. Once we bought different diapers, and let her air out between changes, along with diaper rash cream, and she cleared right up. It wasn't bad, but it was heartbreaking just the same.

Right now we're taking it easy, and staying inside. It's been raining quite a bit lately. Halloween is coming up, and we're pretty excited. I'm hoping I'll have Sweet Pea's costume ready in time. It's gonna be cute!

Tuesday, September 24, 2013


So I did a clothing swap with a local mama. I had a bunch of boy clothes which I obviously don't need, and she had a huge lot of baby girl clothes. She posted in a group that she wanted to swap for boy clothes, how perfect. She had sizes 0-12 months, but I didn't need that much, and I didn't have that many clothes. So she said she would keep everything up to 6-9 months. After I went through the boy clothes I had, I said she could through in a few 3-6 months if she would like, because I had a lot more than I thought. She already had given them away though, and that was fine.

We swapped clothes on Sunday at a Kmart close by. We washed all the clothes, and Monday I went through them. I was very excited. There were a lot of very cute clothes. But as I got further and further into the pile, the more I noticed the pile of 3-6 months clothes grew. Almost all of the clothes I got were 3-6 months! Barely any 6-9 months. I don't think she did it on purpose, I don't even think she knew. Most of the clothes say "6" on them, which is actually 3-6, not 6-9. I tried a few outfits on Sweet Pea today for her 4 month picture, some of them are already too small. It's disappointing. We already had a ton of 3-6 month stuff, but barely any 6-9 month stuff, and money is really tight. We'll make due with what we have, it's just frustrating.

And since I mentioned Sweet Pea's 4 month picture, I'll share the cuteness.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Miss Grump a lump

Poor Sweet Pea had her hardest night, last night, in a long time. It all started when I went to check out some clothes I'm planning on trading for some bigger sizes.

I took her into the bedroom with me, and laid her down on the bed. She had a complete meltdown when I went into the closet to sort out the clothes. I picked her up to calm her down, which worked. So I wrapped her up in the BabyHawk and tried to go about my business. I turned on the fan, beacause I sweat, all the time. And she started melting down again. I already had all the clothes dumped out all over my bed, but whatever.

I unwrapped her, and brought her back to the front room and tried to feed her. She ate about an ounce and fell asleep. She napped for 30 minutes and woke up.

The day went on as normal, kind of fussy, but normal. She took another 20 minute nap, and woke up a complete grump. When it came time to go to bed, she didn't want to eat. She didn't want to go to bed. She fell completely apart. The world was ending. She cried and cried.

Nothing would soothe her. I rocked her. I sang to her. I tried to feed her. The only thing that would calm her down was me walking around with her. I did get her to eat 2 ounces before she fell asleep, but then I made the mistake of trying to go to the bathroom. Then the melt down started all over again. We both cried ourselves to sleep. It was a very difficult night.

This was earlier in the evening. Thank god she's cute!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Best two lines ever

One year ago today our lives forever changed. It was the most exciting, exhilarating and terrifying time of our lives. I had been a little more cranky than usual, and crying a lot, so Mister suggested I pee on a magical stick. Usually the first sign of pregnancy would be a missed period, but I haven't had a regular period since I was a teenager, and we didn't really think it was possible for me to get pregnant. A doctor told me that I didn't ovulate, due to having P.C.O.S. (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). So seeing those two lines show up was quite a shock.

I was really sick at the time, so the timing wasn't the best. But a few months into the pregnancy the sickness went away, and the pregnancy was wonderful. This was the happiest and scariest day of my life. Either way, those were the best two lines I've ever seen in my life.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Things I'm doing that you might find odd

I ate my placenta. I didn't eat it raw, although some people do. I had someone encapsulate, and make a tincture out of mine. To encapsulate it, they dehydrate the placenta then grind it up and put it into capsules. To make a tincture, they take a small chunk of the placenta and soak it in alcohol for 12+ weeks, and then do other things that I'm not too clear on. I haven't picked up my tincture yet, things have been busy. I took the pills twice a day for 2 weeks, and now just when I feel that I need them. They're still sitting in my freezer, staying nice and fresh.

No rice cereal. Rice cereal really doesn't offer any nutrients that real food won't. It's full of carbs which just turn into sugars. Sure there's iron and a few vitamins, but there's also arsenic in it, that should be reason enough to not feed it to any baby.

Baby led weaning. Sweet Pea won't have a taste of food, other than milkies, until somewhere around six months of age. We will offer soft healthy foods that we're eating over jarred baby food. She will need to show interest, be able to sit up on her own, be able to grab food with her index finger and thumb, and be able to move the food down her throat without thrusting her tongue out. Her formula will be her main source of nutrition.

Bottle feeding. I'm a huge supporter of breastfeeding. I think that if you are able to, that is what should be offered to your baby. I also feel that you shouldn't force your baby to wean before s/he is ready. That being said, I don't breastfeed. I'm on a medication that passes through the breast milk, and is very dangerous if Sweet Pea were to ingest any. I was able to give her a few colostrum feedings, which was very special to me. So we bottle feed, with formula. And she's thriving beautifully.

Co-sleeping/Bed-sharing. Sweet Pea has five different sleeping surfaces just for her. Yet, she sleeps right next to me in the crook of my arm. While we were sleeping one night, when she was just a few weeks old, she stopped breathing. I put my hand on her chest, and it wasn't moving. I shook her and yelled at her to breathe, she jumped and gasped then started breathing again. If she hadn't been right beside me, what would have happened?

Teething bling. A few weeks ago I ordered Sweet Pea an amber teething necklace, but I got a few...interesting comments about it. So we're currently waiting on a teething bracelet, that she'll wear around her ankle. Amber is not meant to be chewed, it's suppose to sit on the skin. As the body heats up the amber, succinic acids are released, which work as a natural pain reliever and reduces inflammation, making teething easier.

Babywearing. Sweet Pea and I don't often leave the house, to go somewhere that she wouldn't be held the entire time. But when we do, I try to wear her as apposed to pushing her in the stroller. Sweet Pea likes to be held, and if we're going for a walk or at a store, my arms get tired. So babywearing comes in handy. I just bought a babyhawk, mei tai carrier. I haven't had a chance to use it yet, because it's still drying from it's initial washing. I also have a ring sling, and a make shift Moby wrap that I made myself.

Gentle parenting. Sweet Pea rarely cries. When she does, Mister or I go right to her and pick her up to comfort her. Under no circumstance, do we believe in the CIO (cry it out) method. We see it as abuse and neglect. Sweet Pea is on a schedule, but we're not very strict about it, and she set it herself. If she does have fits of crying, we are right there to comfort her through it.

Baby gear. This is where I get a little less, crunchy. We have lots of baby gear. Lots. And I love all of it! We had every intention of Sweet Pea sleeping in her bassinet right next to the bed, and then moving to her crib when she out grew that. But it didn't work out that way. She won't sleep anywhere else. She needs her Mama to sleep, and I'm more than happy to be there. So we have a full size crib and a bassinet. We also have a Pack n' Play that I had originally thought she would nap in when we were all in the front room. My mom's friend got it for us, and it came with a changing table, we use that many times a day. Then we have her swing. I love that swing. If she's not napping on Mister or I, she's in the swing. We also just got a Bumbo, she really seems to like that. She's always liked to sit up like a big baby. My parents just got her a jumper, she's still a tad small for it, but really likes reaching for the toys, and pressing the buttons. Obviously she also has a car seat too. We got that from Mister's brother and his wife. I love baby gear. I've always wanted a baby, and all the gadgets that go along with it.

I do realize that this isn't everyone's parenting style. I'm really glad that Sweet Pea is getting to start her life this way. She is an extremely happy, easy going baby. She trusts that we will be there to take care of her. 

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Letters to Sweet Pea 3.5 months

Dear Sweet Pea,

You have grown and changed so much in these 3.5 short months that we've had you. I want to remember all your little moments and habits.

You had a full head of hair when you were born. In your first few weeks of life, you would grab a hold of your hair and pull. You would then scream and cry, and look at Mommy and Daddy like we did something awful to you. We had to keep little mittens on you for a while, so you wouldn't do it too often.

When you were a teeny tiny little baby, *when you were first born* when Mommy or Daddy would try to feed you, you would thrash you head back and forth really fast until we were able to get the nipple in your mouth. You don't do that as much now. If you're really hungry, you will do it a little. You mainly just thrash when you're sleepy and want your passie.

You currently have a sensitive tummy, we're hoping that you will grow out of this. When you were first born, the kind of milkies that we fed you made you very upset. You would throw up, nearly every time we fed you! Once we changed to a sensitive milky, you felt much better. While you were having these tummy problems, you would scream and cry. Mommy and Daddy would try everything we could to make you feel better, sometimes nothing would work. Now you're felling much better, and eat like a champ.

You sleep with Mommy every night. We didn't plan on having you sleep in the same bed as me, but you refused to sleep anywhere else! When you were first born, you would sleep for two hours at a time, tops. And you would sleep in your swing, while Daddy or Mommy would sleep on the couch in the front room with you. But, Mommy and Daddy started to miss each other, from sleeping at different times, so we tried to have you sleep in the lovely bassinet we bought just for you, but you would have no part of that, you would only sleep with Mommy. You even started sleeping through the night at about 9 weeks! We were very happy about that.

When you fall asleep for your nap, you like to put your hand over your nose and mouth, this would make us very nervous when you were tiny. Over the last few weeks, when we go to bed, you like to reach out and touch Mommy's face, sometimes smacking it a bit. A couple weeks ago, you fell asleep while holding my bottom lip. You're such a silly girl.

You absolutely love car rides! When we put you in your car seat, you get very excited and smile really big. You barely last 5 minutes in the car before you're asleep. When you were 10 weeks old, you had your first big road trip. We drove up North to see your cousin for his second birthday, you did an amazing job. Slept pretty much the whole way there and back. I hope you always love car rides this much.

You had your first overnight trip this month as well! Grandma S. took you, Daddy and I to the beach for Mommy's birthday. You had a little bit of a difficult time, but over all it went well.

You're now reaching for your toys, and not just the ones hanging over your head, the ones that out in front of you! Grandma and Grandpa L. got you a jumper seat, and you love it! You reach for your toys and push the buttons. Your feet don't quite reach yet, but they're pretty close.

Grandma S. got you a Bumbo seat a couple of days ago, and you seem to really enjoy it. You have wanted to sit up like a big girl for several weeks, and this little seat helps you do that. In fact, you're sitting in it right now, playing with your little toys.

Mommy tries to read to you every day, sometimes I miss a day or two. Your favorite book is The Very Hungry Caterpillar. You reach for the pages of bright colors, and get very excited when the caterpillar turns into a butterfly.

You love Mommy and Daddy so much. When Daddy walks into the room, you light up. You get the biggest smile. Mommy got your first giggle this week too! It was the cutest, most beautiful sound. You have the best giggle.

You have been "talking" up a storm this month. Each morning when you wake me up, you let out one big yell. I wake up and then you tell me all about your dreams. Just a few short months ago, you would scream until you turned purple. I like the babbling much better. Right now, you're laying on the floor talking to yourself. When you're sitting on Mommy or Daddy's lap, and you're looking at your toes, you grunt. It's your concentration voice. It's pretty freakin' adorable.

These past 3.5 months have been the best times of my life. You are an amazing addition to our family, and the most loved little girl in the entire world.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

A little update, with a picture!

The past few days have been a little hectic, not that we've been doing anything extra.

I threw my back out several days ago, so things are harder to do when it comes to Sweet Pea. Sleeping has been quite difficult, because I can't seem to get comfortable. Mister has been picking up the slack, by getting up with her for her morning feed, then brings her back to me so we can sleep a few more hours.

Yesterday we went to a local consignment store that was having a .25$ sale. They have three big tables piled high with children clothes for .25$ each. We loaded up, and spent a whopping $4.75. Because my back has been hurting so badly, I took a pain pill to help me out. I made the mistake of taking the pill on an empty stomach, and felt horrible for the rest of the day. Not only did my belly hurt, but the pill didn't even work, so my back was still killing me! So while Mister was checking out, I had to go back to the car and sit down. By the time we got home, I was a sweaty, moaning mess. I laid down and rolled back and forth in front of the fan. It took a few hours, but I finally felt while enough to come out to the front room.

Sweet Pea has been fighting sleep, more and more. The past couple of  nights, whenever I turn out the lights to go to bed, she wakes up and starts yelling at me. And gets progressively louder until I turn the lights back on. We've been going to bed earlier, so we can get up earlier, but last night she didn't want to go to bed until 12AM. She was tired, she kept falling asleep, but as soon as I would turn off the light, she would wake up and let me know she did NOT approve.

Next week is going to be a busy, but exciting one. We'll be having dinner with my dad and step-mom Tuesday night, and then heading out to the beach Wednesday morning. I'm hoping that my back will be back to 100% by then, because a long car ride does not sound fun while I'm in this much pain.

Not much else to report, so I'll leave you with a picture. Sweet Pea is holding herself up extremely well, and tolerating tummy time a little more now.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Our other babies

Long before we had Sweet Pea, we had Bunjie, Lucy, and Whitey. We got Bunjie because Mister is deathly allergic to cats, and I had to have a furry little pet. Then he seemed so sad and depressed, and would just sit in his "sad corner", for hours at a time. So we got Lucy. They had 27 babies. 27!!! The first litter didn't live, but the second one did. There were 3 black babies and one white one.

Lucy kept taking the white one out of the nest and leaving it alone by the food dish. Mister and I both would put it back in the nest, then she would move the other babies out and just leave the white one. It was still alive, but not thriving. We rushed to the pet store and got kitten formula and tried to feed this tiny wiggly little bunny. It was having no part of it. So we just squirted the formula all over the baby bunny and put it back in the nest. This whole time we were just calling this little baby bunny, "the white one" or "whitey", we didn't plan on keeping it. And then it turned into a little ball of adorable fluff, and then turned into a she. And we just couldn't give her away.

Lucy isn't quite as friendly as the other two. She grew up on a "bunny farm", and was in a tiny cage for most of the day. So she doesn't really like to be handled much. Although, once she settles down in a comfy spot on you, she'll tolerate the pets. She can cuddles once in a while. She's a lion head, and is quite fluffy, but that can get a little messy too. We have literal dust bunnies.

Bunjie is my baby. We got him when he was less than 6 weeks old. He will sit on my lap and just stretch out. He even lets me hold him like a baby once in a while. When I was pregnant, he would sit on my belly, and anytime Sweet Pea would move, he would thump and start digging! When I held him for the first time since having Sweet Pea, he jumped on my belly and started pushing around with his front paws, like he didn't understand why it was empty.

Since having Sweet Pea, the bunnies have been a bit neglected. I have felt so guilty, but all of my time and energy goes to Sweet Pea. Mister still goes and feeds them and picks them up to check them out, but I miss holding them.

Last night was kind of a difficult night, I've been emotional...what's new. So Mister brought out Bunjie, and took Sweet Pea from me. I sobbed. I held him so tight and soaked his soft coat with my tears. And he let me do it! He cuddled right up to my neck and stretched out. It was a good bonding moment. I think it's safe to say my hormones are NOT back to normal!

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Exciting adventures await

Sweet Pea and I had a small photo shoot today. I still sometimes have a hard time believing that she's mine, that I'm a mommy. This is something I've wanted my entire life, and I didn't think it would ever happen. When I was little, and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would say, "I want to be a mommy". This little Pea, is everything I've ever wanted. I couldn't be any happier.

We're going on our first overnight trip the week after next! We're going to the beach for my birthday. I'm really excited, but quite nervous. Mister and I haven't been on an overnight trip, since his mom's funeral in 2006. It will only be for one night, but it's going to be so much fun! And I've been assured that this is the best time to travel with babies. Sweet Pea loves car rides, so hopefully that part will go as smoothly as it did for our first road trip.

This will be Sweet Pea's first trip to the beach ever! Well...duh. I'm hoping the weather is nice, so we can spend some time on the actual beach.

Friday, August 23, 2013

3 Months old!!

Sweet Pea is 3 months old today! I just can't believe it. On one hand, it feels like she's been here forever. But on the other hand, I swear I just had her yesterday. She's changed so much!! She's really growing into her own personality.

She lets me know when she wakes up by letting out one loud yelp. She is extremely jolly when she first wakes up in the morning, and loves to have her morning chats. She's playing with toys that hang over her head more and more, and grabs onto them now!

She doesn't really cry unless she's in pain. Or fighting sleep. When we're out and about, she likes to see what's going on, and doesn't want to miss anything.

She likes to sit up like a big baby. She no longer likes to be held like a "baby", she thinks she's a big girl now. *tear*

She still spits up if she lays on her back too soon after eating.

She gets angry after about 5 minutes of tummy time, if she lasts that long. She usually will roll over long before then, so Mister sits on the floor with her and rolls her back to her belly. She does really well with pushing her self up with her arms.

We eat dinner every night as a family. We bring her into the kitchen with us, in her bouncy seat. Usually she does great and will play with her toys the whole time. Sometimes she gets a tad fussy, and mommy gets to eat one handed, which is fun when it's something like ribs, or spaghetti.

I'm pretty sure she's growing through a growth spurt, she's been super sleepy during the day, and still sleeping 10+ hours at night! Just like her mommy and daddy, loves her sleep.

These past 3 months have just flown by. I'm glad I'm taking monthly pictures, to see how she's changing. My little Sweet Pea is growing too fast.