Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Don't cry over spilled placenta

It is so bizarre when you're at your regular doctors office, and they call your daughters name for the first time. It made it even more real that she is a real little person, her own person.

When they called "Daphne", I got excited and thought "oh that's our baby's name!" And then no one else got up...."oh yea! That IS our baby".

Today was a very big day for us. It was the first time we've left the house as a family of 3. And of course, being new parents, and it being the first time we left the house, we were a good 20 minutes late for her appointment. Oh no! Even better! The appointment was actually for yesterday morning, so we were 24 hours and 20 minutes late! Hello mommy brain!

The appointment went really well. She hasn't gained any weight, but hasn't lost any either. The doctor said her umbilical cord will most likely fall off in the next day or two. I'm kind of a little sad about this, it just reminds me how quickly she's growing up. I want her to stay this little forever.

My emotions have been all over the place, thanks to my hormones. I can cry at the drop of a hat. Mister got up from a nap, and kindly suggested I don't leave the cord of the fan in the walk would have thought he told me our rabbits died or something. I cried so hard, and there were SO many tears! Or how about when I got my placenta pills out of the freezer, opened the jar and spilled them all over the floor, I don't think I've ever cried that hard in my life!

My milk has started to really come in. It was just a crap ton of colostrum for a few days, but today it has turned into actual milk. It's really bitter/sweet. I love that I can make all of this milk, and that my body works the way it's suppose to, but it breaks my heart that I can't use it and it all goes to waste. Especially when Sweet Pea roots around looking for her mommy milkies. She wants to nurse so badly, and I have to deny her all the time. And now I'm crying again....thanks guys! I was going through make shift breast pads like crazy, but a friend suggested using menstrual pads. Most genius idea I've ever heard of.

I find breast feeding and breast milk absolutely fascinating! While I'm waiting for mine to dry up, I express them when my breasts start to hurt and get hard. I love it! I like watching it come out, and squirt all over haha it really is an amazing thing that us women can do.

My mom has been the biggest help. She has been over every day since Sweet Pea was born, making dinner and taking care of her while Mister and I catch up on sleep. Yesterday, she brought over a truck load of groceries and then made us dinner. It meant so much to me. We were out of food, and there's no way I'm dragging this sweet baby to a germy store!

My dad and step-mom are coming over tonight and bringing dinner. Mister went to bed early, so he can get up shortly after I go to bed, to take care of Sweet Pea. They said they don't want to be smothering, so they haven't been coming over. I told them they were being ridiculous, we WANT people to come over and see her. I mean, come on....she's beautiful!

I'm healing up very well. Other than the staph infection on my upper lip....yep, really. It started out as a little bump that itched, and now it's bigger than a quarter and super super swollen. My lymph node and the right side of my face is swollen and very painful. Obviously I got it from the hospital, makes you feel real confident in having surgery to have a baby there. They put me on antibiotics, and it should be better in the next couple of days.

I get my staples out tomorrow. I'm looking forward to them being out, but I'm a little scared about it hurting. I know I just had major surgery and made it through that just may be irrational, but it's still there lol
Sweet Pea is the most amazing little person I've ever met! She's beyond beautiful and brings so much joy to our lives. She sleeps, like...all the time. We usually have to wake her to feed, and that's kind of a struggle to do sometimes. I've been assured this is normal. Up until today, she would only sleep if she was on one of our chests, which made it so we couldn't sleep for fear of dropping her. We figured maybe it was because, while we were awake, we would hold her the entire time she was sleeping, and so she got used to it. So today when she's been sleeping *again, seems like all the time* we put her in her bassinet that she's suppose to sleep in at night. She seems to tolerate it alright. She's been in there for 45 minutes, and hasn't cried at all. Here's hoping she will do this when it's time for bed.

I plan on writing about her birth eventually, I just don't really have the energy right now. It was wonderful, and went almost as planned. 

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Sweet Pea is here!!!

I'm doing this one handed, so bear with me here.

Sweet Pea was born via c-section May 23, 2013 at 6:28pm. She was 8 lbs 1oz and 19 3/4 inches long. She is the most beautiful baby I've ever seen!

I'll write more about it later, when things calm down. 

Oh, would you like to know her name? Daphne Charlotte. Charlotte is my moms name, and we just loved Daphne.

She's already grown so much. She's now 5 days old, and getting cuter by the second! We're beyond in love!

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

T-minus 36 hours

We are now to the point of counting down the hours until Sweet Pea makes her appearance! We're looking at about 36 hours! Everything is ready to go. Still some light cleaning that could be done, but if it doesn't get finished, that's alright.

My anxiety level is pretty high right now. I've never had surgery before, so it's quite a bit scary. Not to mention we're going to be 100% responsible for this tiny little human. Mister and I are both extremely excited, just nervous.

I can not wait to see what this little one looks like! At each NST *Non Stress Test*, they do an ultrasound. During each ultrasound the nurse comments about how much hair she has! I had a lot of hair when I was born, so I'm really excited to see if she really does have a lot.

I was hoping Sweet Pea would turn head down, and I would go into labor before the c-section, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen. On a positive note, everything I was planning on putting in my birth plan, my hospital does automatically! Delayed cord clamping, immediate skin to skin, and if I'm not able to do skin to skin for whatever reason, Mister will be able to. Sweet Pea will be with one of us at all times, and she will room in with us.

We're also declining the hepatitis B vaccine and the eye ointment they usually automatically put in newborns eyes. I would like to turn down the Vitamin K shot as well, but because Sweet Pea will be coming via c-section, it's necessary and they don't offer the drops.

I'm also planning on bringing home my placenta to encapsulate it.

Yep. I will be consuming my placenta. It's thought to help with postpartum  healing, and postpartum depression, along with a slew of other benefits. I'm at a very high risk for PPD *Postpartum depression*, and I'm not able to take anti depressants because they make me go manic. So if there is any chance that this will help me not suffer from it, you better believe I'll be doing it!

The hospital is on board with this, which is great! We're so excited to meet our little girl. And pictures will be posted once we're home and settled.

Thank you to everyone who showed your support and love. It was/is very much appreciated!

Friday, May 17, 2013

39 Week update

How far along: 39 Weeks 

How big is baby: Watermelon 18.9-20.9 inches 6.2-9.2 pounds

Maternity Clothes: Yoga pants, regular shirts. A giant t-shirt dress 
because, pants are too much effort.

Best moment of the week: Getting everything organized

Food Cravings: Strawberries, cereal, peanuts

Food Adversions: None, go figure

Irritability: A tad better this week, but still no patience for stupid people
Acne: Cleared up
Cramping: None
Dizziness: None
Lower hip pain: None
Migraine: None 
Hip/groin pain *officially diagnosed with SPD*: It's excruciating. 
Frequent urination: It's calmed down this week
Upper stomach pain: None
Lactation: Oh yea!
Braxton Hicks: Quite a few. If only they were making progress
Insomnia: Having a hard time getting comfortable
Swelling: If I don't keep my feel elevated, I have cankles!
PUPPs: Omg. Please! Make the itching stop!!
Movement: She has officially run out of room. She's pushing more than 
anything else

Position: Transverse oblique (diagonal/sideways) 

Gender: Girl!!

What I'm looking forward to: Meeting this beautiful baby girl!

Next appointment: May 20th, NST/OB follow up, May 23rd Delivery day!!

*Update* 6 days left! This is our last weekend without a baby!!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Living in the moment

At the beginning of this pregnancy, I told Mister that I wanted to enjoy every minute of it. Though this statement has come to bite me in the ass a few times, I'd like to think that I've lived up to it.

In the first few weeks, I was told I needed to stop taking my anxiety medication. Obviously I stopped right away, and let me tell was absolutely no fun. I didn't realize that I was having withdrawals, I thought that what I was feeling was a normal part of pregnancy. I couldn't understand why anyone would do this more than once in their life, and I wanted it to end. I wanted the 40 weeks to be over, and it couldn't happen soon enough. Once the medication was out of my system, things completely changed. I felt amazing. I really was enjoying every minute of it.

I'm now 38 weeks pregnant. The end is in sight, and I'm ecstatic to meet our little girl, but I'm so sad that I won't be pregnant anymore. This is most likely going to be the only time I get to experience this, we're not planning on having anymore little Sweet Pea's.

I read a blog post on the Birth Without Fear page, a post written from one sister to another. It went on about being 38 weeks pregnant, and coming to the end of her pregnancy. About how she is joining a very special sisterhood, and how she should cherish these last few moments of the pregnancy, because you can't get them back.

Soon Sweet Pea will be here, and then she'll be a month old, 6 months old, a year, 5 years, a TEENAGER! All in the blink of an eye. Knowing this breaks my heart. I don't want her to grow too quickly. But it also brings to my attention that I need to enjoy and be present in every moment.

It was brought to my attention that I've been having a "bitch" of a pregnancy. I've had a lot of things not go as planned, and a lot of uncomfortable-ness. And through all of the crap, SPD (Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction), Carpel Tunnel, Gestational Diabetes, PUPPs (Pruritic Urticarial Papules and Plaques), I suppose it could be viewed as a "bitch" of a pregnancy, but I can already tell you it's so beyond worth it.

Any one of those things would suck, all of them together is horrible. The SPD makes it excruciating to try and turn over in bed, to the point of crying at night. PUPPs is a horrible rash that makes it difficult to sleep at night because I itch so badly. Carpel tunnel hurts, we all know that. And gestational diabetes sucks because I can't satisfy all those carb and sugar heavy cravings I'm having. But I love it. I love every itchy, stabby, achy, second of it. Why you ask, because it reminds me that I'm pregnant. It reminds me that I'm growing the most precious, beautiful baby in the entire world.

I took the comment of me having one "bitch" of a pregnancy, as a way of saying I complain too much. I don't know if that's what that person was saying or not, but that's how I took it. This happened in an online group that I belong to, so I go there with my symptoms asking if anyone else has had the same issue and how they relieved the pain/itchiness, I'm in no way complaining. Of course I would rather not have these things, but like I said, it's worth it.

Sweet Pea will be here in 9 days, or less if she decides to come on her own. I'm a nervous wreck, but I'm so beyond excited. We're getting things done a little at a time, marking things off the long list. I appreciate all the love that I'm receiving about the upcoming delivery. Sweet Pea has so many people that are excited for her arrival, and I feel truly blessed.

Friday, May 10, 2013

38 week update

How far along: 38 Weeks 

How big is baby: Pumpkin 18.9-20.9 inches 6.2-9.2 pounds

Maternity Clothes: Yoga pants, regular shirts. I've also started wearing a t-shirt 
dress, because pants are sometimes too much effort.

Best moment of the week: I got a pedicure this week....quite lovely

Food Cravings: Strawberries, chocolate, cereal

Food Adversions: None, go figure

Irritability: A tad better this week, but still no patience for stupid people
Acne: Cleared up
Cramping: Quite a bit yesterday, I was dehydrated
Dizziness: None
Lower hip pain: None
Migraine: None 
Hip/groin pain: It's excruciating. It's a nice break when I don't scream out in pain from
trying to turn over at night.
Frequent urination: It's calmed down this week
Upper stomach pain: None
Lactation: Oh yea!
Braxton Hicks: None
Insomnia: Better this week
Swelling: I had to take my ring off :(
PUPPs: Omg. Please! Make the itching stop!!
Movement: She's bopping around

Position: Transverse oblique (diagonal/sideways) 

Gender: Girl!!

What I'm looking forward to: Getting the rest of the house organized

Next appointment: May 13th, NST/OB follow up

*Update* Less than 2 weeks left! 13 days! OMG!

Friday, May 3, 2013

Getting organized "AKA nesting"

We have gotten so much done this week! It feels fantastic to get things in order!

Mister moved the ginormous bed, got the sheets changed, moved the dresser into the closet, and cleaned everything. I've gotten all of Sweet Pea's clothes washed and put away! I have the little accessories into their own little compartments. I love having things organized!

This weekend we're planning on setting up the crib and changing table. After that, all we have to do is install the car seat and set up the swing. That and put away all the adult laundry. There's not much, so that's good.

Now that I'm officially full term, Sweet Pea can make her appearance anytime. I still need to pack both our bags for the hospital, just in case she does decide to come on her own.

My blood sugars have dropped quite a bit this week, I'm not sure what that means. I'd like to think that my body is getting ready to have this beautiful little girl, and regulating my blood sugars for her to arrive. I'm not sure how logical that is, but one can hope. I've filled my doctors in on it, they don't seem too concerned, but we are a little. Waking up with your blood sugar at 60 just isn't right.

This is the last weekend I'm leaving the house unless it's for appointments. I get too tired too quickly to do anything. If I leave the house, then I'm too tired to get anything done when we get home. Hell, all I've done today is waddle out to the front room, and I'm ready for a nap.

That's all I've got to update for now.

37 Week update *Hello full term*

How far along: 37 Weeks FULL TERM

How big is baby: Winter Melon 18.9-20.9 inches 6.2-9.2 pounds

Maternity Clothes: Yoga pants, regular shirts. I've also started wearing a t-shirt dress, 
because pants are sometimes too much effort.

Best moment of the week: Getting so see the nieces and nephews, and driving down south.

Food Cravings: Strawberries, chocolate 

Food Adversions: Pork

Irritability: A tad better this week, but still no patience for stupid people
Acne: Cleared up
Cramping: None
Dizziness: None
Lower hip pain: None
Migraine: None 
Hip/groin pain: It's really bad. 
Frequent urination: It's calmed down this week
Upper stomach pain: None
Lactation: Oh yea, I may or may not have squirted myself in the face a few times
Braxton Hicks: None
Insomnia: Um...yea...what's sleep?
Swelling: It's a little better, but I still swell quite easily
PUPPs: It's spreading all over my belly and sides, and moving it's way down my legs.
It itches like crazy, mainly when I'm going to bed.
Movement: She's running out of room, so she's not as active

Position: Transverse oblique (diagonal/sideways) 

Gender: Girl!!

What I'm looking forward to: Getting Sweet Pea's crib set up!

Next appointment: May 6th, NST

*Update* A day less than 3 weeks left! 20 days!! 20!!