Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Chaos, you have made your point. Now leave

It all started last night when Mister was washing the bottles. Oh sweet Mister. He was trying to do a good thing, he really was.

Sweet Pea has graduated from the slow flow nipples, and we haven't had a chance to get the medium flow just yet. The one time we were at the store and had the cash to do so, Wal*Mart didn't carry the Playtex Ventaire with the wide nipples O.o, I mean really? It's Wal*Mart! So we haven't been back to a store since.

SO Mister was attempting to make the hole in the nipples bigger, we've tried with a needle, and it doesn't make a big enough hole. So he did it with a steak knife....he practically took the entire tip of the nipple off. He came out and asked if it was too big of a whole, water just came pouring out all over the floor. Yes. Yes, Mister, the hole is too big. We then advanced to fast flow nipples, they seem to be working alright....

I then proceeded to change Sweet Pea and get her ready for bed, you know put a clean diaper on her and get jammies on her. 11PM came around, and from my earlier post, we know that means Sweet Pea gets her final diaper change before bed. As soon as I got the diaper off she peed all over herself, her jammies, and the changing table. Ugh. I was having some post partum sweats and started to strip down. I instantly became overwhelmed. I told Mister to go ahead and clean her up, while I wiped away my tears and went and grabed her new jammies. We got her all cleaned up and re dressed, and then she had the biggest feeding of her life!!

She slept until 7AM, which was much appreciated, we were up for about an hour or so. Took a nap and got up at 11:30AM. I got her dressed then came out to the front to feed her. I set down my water bottle, and noticed I left out the bottle from the 7AM feeding! GAH! That was half a bottle! We can't afford to do that crap! Ugh. I take the bottle to the kitchen and throw it in the sink, and open the fridge to get a new one out. There aren't any. O.o Ummm Ok. I looked in the sink. Non of the bottles have been washed or filled. Greeaaaat. Mister usually does that before bed. I've got a cranky hungry baby. I hurry and was all the bottles then fill them all.

I am now feeding Sweet Pea. She is starving and downs 6oz, like it's nothing. I got an adequate amount of burps from her, and then all of a sudden she makes this demonic noise and baby vomit goes down my shirt and under my boobs. Ew, would best describe this experience. Ew. I clean myself up and wipe her mouth, because she barely got herself of course. And we continue to cuddle.

I then realized that I'm starving. I put Sweet Pea in her bouncy seat and got myself a couple muffins. When I came back I didn't like where Sweet Pea's bouncy seat was so I set my muffins down on the chair and moved the bouncy seat. And then noticed I still had baby vomit under my boobs, again....ew! I cleaned myself fully and threw the dirty rag in the laundry. And came and sat back down.

Notice a missing step there? I sat on my effing muffins!! I'll repeat that. I SAT ON MY EFFING MUFFINS! You better believe I still ate those bastards too!

Alright chaos, you are free to leave now.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

New blog!

Welcome to the new blog! I've still got some work to do, and more posts to add, but I thought I'd open it up for now. 

I had grand plans of doing an update of what's been going on around here, but it's now late and too close to bed time, so it will have to wait for another day. 

Monday, July 29, 2013

My 9 week old can read!!

Last time I wrote about our routine, it immediately changed the next day. Yesterday when I wrote about our new and improved routine, Sweet Pea was up until 1:30am crying. Deductive reasoning would lead me to believe that the kid reads my damn blog!

In all seriousness, we went up to my moms yesterday for a BBQ and I think Sweet Pea may have been a little over stimulated. We go up there almost every weekend, so I'm not sure why this weekend would have done it, but when we got home, she would just not go to sleep! She was exhausted, I could see it in her sleepy little eyes. Hell, she was tired the entire time we were up at my moms. By the time we finally got her to sleep, she slept hard for 6 hours straight! Meaning, she went 7 hours without eating! Longest she's ever gone without eating in her life.

She's been pretty sleepy all day, because I had her get up pretty close to her regular time. She's now taking her before bedtime nap. I hope this means she'll go to bed without a fight tonight. She got a bath and tummy time, so she should be pretty well worn out.

Friday, July 26, 2013

It's a wonderful life

Yesterday was a wonderful day. We had Sweet Pea's 2 month check up. She's 12.7 lbs and 22 3/4 inches long! Growing so incredibly fast. The doctor said she's gaining a little more quickly than she would like, compared to what she was doing last time she was in. The thing is, last time she was in, she was vomiting several times a day, in huge quantities, and now she's not....of course she's gaining wait more quickly. My babies perfect, shut up doctor.

After the doctors appointment, we went over to visit Sweet Pea's great grandparent's. We try to visit them once a week. I had such a great relationship with them growing up, that I would really like Sweet Pea to have one with them as well. They really were/are the best grandparents a kid could ask for. After every visit, I get an email from my grandma thanking me for letting them hold Sweet Pea. Because you know, I'm going to tell them they can't hold the baby haha They're so funny.

Today is also a very special day. Mister and I have been together for 8 years today! We've been through quite a bit, and have come out ahead happier and more in love in spite, or maybe because of it all. This year has been one of our most difficult, but also absolutely our most joyous year by far. Sweet Pea has brought us closer together, and more in love than ever before. Mister is the man of my dreams, and the best father Sweet Pea could ever ask for. Happy 8 years Mister, you are my best friend in the entire world, and I'm lucky to have you in my life.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

2 Month update

My baby girl is 2 month old!! Where did the time go?! Let's compare and contrast. Look how much she's changed!!! She's chubbed up so much! I can't even handle the amount of cute in these pictures.  
She has found her voice, and is really "talking" up a storm! She will also allow us to put her down while she's awake for short periods of time and she will entertain herself. We have a little bouncy chair that has some toys hanging from it, that she's been batting at lately. I'd like to get her one of those activity mats that has toys hanging from it.

She still sleeps completely sprawled out, when she's not sleeping with me. Although, a few times during a colic-y period, swaddling has worked and it completely shocked us all. The colic seems to be all but gone, thank god, because that was pure hell. 

To think this little stinker was inside me this time 2 months ago is a little mind blowing. I miss it. She's the most perfect baby on the face of the earth, and I couldn't imagine life without her. Happy 2 month birthday Sweet Pea!

Friday, July 19, 2013

A month in pictures

Meeting Great-Aunt S. for the first time (I have a picture somewhere of her holding me almost 28 years ago!)
All sprawled out
Grandma snuggles
She loves her bath time!
Auntie J. came to visit! Doesn't she look great holding a baby?

Sometimes she makes goofy faces
So sweet in Daddy's arms 
She looks so grown up!
Holding her head up so well
Sleeping through the picnic
Love of my life
Things have been super crazy this past month. It's just flown by. Sweet Pea is now 8 weeks old!! She's growing like a damn weed, weighing in at over 12 lbs! 0-3 month clothes only go up to 12 lbs!!! This is all going sooo fast. And now I hear her waking.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Routine is a wonderful thing

Remember when I said before that we were getting into a routine? Looking back it worked for us at that time, but I'm pretty sure the very next day, the routine fell apart. We needed more time as a family unit, and Sweet Pea needed to start sleeping during the night, and spending her awake times during the day. Apparently it's quite common for newborns to get their hours confused like that. Lucky us, we have a common baby. O_O

I don't know when exactly our new routine became and actual routine, but I love that it's here. During the day we kind of play it by ear. We do whatever we feel like, whether it's having a picnic, or to a few stores, hanging out at home, visiting family, ect. But when 8pm hits she get's her diaper changed, jammies on, and eats 3-4 ounces, she then takes a short nap and wakes up at about 10 pm. At 11pm she gets a Huggies strapped to her butt and some Burt's bees diaper cream, because the diaper stays on a little longer than usual. She eats 2-3 more ounces and we're in bed and asleep by 11:30pm. We sleep until 4-5am when she wakes to eat 2-3 ounces and falls asleep while burping, wakes again to eat between 8-9am to eat 2-3 more ounces and is up "for the day". I however am not.

I take her back to bed and set her in her Boppy and I lay next her as she talks to me and tells me all about her dreams. We chat for about an hour and a half and she starts fussing so I give her back her passie and her eyes slowly start to close. I toss the Boppy aside and scoop her back into my arms, and we fall asleep until 11-12pm and then we're up for the day. I've decided I really like routine. It's comforting.

Today we're heading up to my mom's house for a BBQ. Next weekend is going to be beyond busy, it's going to be Sweet Pea's first road trip. For her cousin's second birthday! I can NOT believe Bug is going to be two already. There may be pictures, if his parent's OK it. Other wise you'll just have to survive with pictures of Sweet Pea in her very first party dress!

Friday, July 5, 2013

Plot twist

The BIL and the kidlets came over the other day. I thought it was a little odd that they wanted to come over here, because we usually go to their house to visit, but whatever. Remember, they had no idea about Sweet Pea, so this was going to be an exciting visit. Or so we thought.

I was sitting in the chair with Sweet Pea sound asleep on my chest, the BIL came in and looked at us and his jaw fell open. The kids filed in behind him, and he asked "you had a baby?" I was really uncomfortable, I started laughing and said "yes, this is Daphne"....BIL immediately picked her up and kissed her cheek. We all giggled and said how weird Mister was for wanting to keep this a secret. The BIL then said he also had a surprise for us. He said he sold his house last week, and he's moving 2,500 miles away next week! He got an amazing job offer, so his wife will be able to stay home with the twins. His three older kids are going to stay in the state with their mom, who for whatever reason can't stand us, so we'll never get to see them. It was a little heartbreaking. I had to excuse myself and go cry in the bedroom.

We all went out to lunch, laughed and had a good time. But the entire time it felt like I was mourning a huge loss. The next day was just as bad. I'm very sad that Sweet Pea is now going to grow up without cousins. It's always been important to me for my children to have cousins. I grew up very close with all of mine, and I wanted her to have that same experience. I don't have any siblings, so it all fell on Mister's family.

For the fourth, we went over to the BIL's house. His wife was visibly upset that we didn't tell them. She had a huge load of baby stuff for us, and said there was so much more just a week earlier. Really, we have no more room for any more haha. They also gave us a really nice infant car seat that supports Sweet Pea much better in the car than the one we had.

We had dinner and lit fireworks. Sweet Pea is very loved by that side of the family and we both now regret not sharing the news sooner. Granted, they knew they were looking for work on the other side of the country about a year ago. If we had known they were planning on leaving, we obviously would have shared the news. But, what's done is done. We will stay in touch through email. If the BIL ever comes to visit, we'll get together, and hopefully see the older kids. I have a feeling we won't see the SIL or the twins ever again. I cried as I hugged the SIL goodbye. She told me to call her if I ever need any advice, that was nice. They also said that they will ship out a box of clothes every few months when the girl twin outgrows hers. That's so generous.

Sounds like Sweet Pea is waking up. Hopefully just long enough to eat, and go to bed for the night. These past few days have been very emotionally draining. Mister and I are more tired than usual, which makes it even harder with a newborn. Pretty much every time she sleeps, we sleep. Which makes us sleep many many hours a day.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Your placenta, eat it!

We are all well aware that I suffer from ridiculous anxiety, and a slew of other things. When I became pregnant, I had to stop taking my anxiety medicine. It was the worst experience of my life, I literally wanted to die. But I got past it and enjoyed the rest of my pregnancy. I figured that once I had Sweet Pea I would need to go back on the medication right away. 5 weeks out, and I still haven't started it, and I'm doing alright.

I had my placenta encapsulated by Portland MamaBaby, and am very happy with the product I got. I am also having a tincture made, but that takes 12 weeks. Some people choose to eat theirs raw, and more power to them, but I am just not able to handle that one yet. Some people put it in smoothies, Mister and I talked about him doing that *making them* for me, but I was afraid he would get grossed out and then my placenta would go to waste.

In the first week and a half or so, I took 2 pills twice a day. After that I took them maybe once a day, and now I'm down to just taking two when I'm feeling overwhelmed, or overly sensitive/angry, or if I have a good amount of anxiety. Yesterday was one of those days.

Every summer I go manic. I'm bipolar, it happens. The medication I'm on helps make it so I don't go super manic, like where I ruin my life, but the mania does come every year. This year is no different. Usually when I go manic, I just become more irritable, and want to constantly be on the go. Anyway, we were afraid this was starting up yesterday. I was a raging bitch! I was hot, hungry, sleep deprived, I was in rough shape. I was laughing one minute, yelling the next, and then crying the next. It was a rough day. I stormed to the bedroom, yelling something super mature like, "Don't ever talk to me again!", or something equally rational. Then I remembered the magic pills! I stomped to the freezer, ripped it open as I glared at Mister like there were lazers shooting out of my eyes. I gulped down the pills with lukewarm water, because it's like 10000* and water doesn't get cold when it's that hot, then stomped back to the bedroom. I stayed in there for a while brooding, trying to come up with someone to blame this mood on.

I called my mom several times that night, because we were going to go up to cool off and have dinner. I kept switching back and forth between going and not. So whilst I was brooding, I called her in tears saying we were for sure coming up. Mister hopped in the shower and we headed up north. By the time we got there, I was a whole new person. I was happier and calmed down, and wasn't about to rip anyone's throat out.

Perhaps it was because I was a little more cooled off, or perhaps it was the magic in the placenta. Either way, I highly recommend it!

Cooling off soon

Tomorrow's the day. Tomorrow, Sweet Pea will meet her uncle and 3 of her 5 cousins. Tomorrow, the BIL *Brother in law* will find out that I was pregnant, and we had a baby.

Mister thinks this is going to be hilarious, I think it's going horribly awkward, and uncomfortable. They're coming over here, which is a little weird because we have been going over there since the FIL *father in law* left. I'm kind of wondering if the BIL knows something. I don't know how he would know...unless he found this blog and figured out it was me?? Meh. Oh well. I just hope he doesn't get upset.

It's going to be way too hot to have that many people in this place, but he insisted. We are getting a heat pump put in tomorrow that will also act as an air conditioner. We'll be able to keep it at a cool 75* during the summer, and not have to pay anymore! In fact, we will probably pay less than what we're paying. And keep it at a warm 68* in the winter, and pay the same amount if not less than when we were keeping it at a freezing 59*. Yes, we kept the place at 59*. It was cold, and miserable. But with the baby, we need to keep it warmer. I'm quite excited about this happening.