Thursday, October 30, 2014

17 month update

 17 months. I have a walking, nearly talking 17 month old. Not quite sure how that happened. And the attitude on this child, whew! Let me tell you. Both Mister and I are quite stubborn, so she comes by it honestly.

Her favorite things to say are "hi" and "what's this?" And not just once. She says them about 20 times in a row. Which is ok, because her voice is adorable. And she talks to complete strangers, telling them "hi", in her high pitched, sweet toddler voice.

She stopped sitting still (well duh) for her monthly pictures a couple months ago, so we started taking them at the park. It rains half the year here, more like 3/4 of the year, so it was a bit of a challenge this month and the months to come, but we made it. Sweet Pea had a blast playing in the mud puddles and getting dirty. We support mud and dirt, it's good for the immune system.

We recently got our bathtub fixed, with the help of my dad and step mom, so Sweet Pea has been enjoying real baths and she loves them! We have to mop up the entire bathroom when she's finished, which is fine, it helps us keep it clean. 

We've been cooped up for so many days, Sweet Pea was just SO happy to be outside and able to run and play. We were the only ones at the park, could you imagine? On such a lovely day?

Sweet Pea was on a kissing strike for a couple months, and it was breaking my heart. But over the last couple of days, she's started giving them again! I may have cried. And hugs! She gives hugs, un provoked. And they're the best hugs I've ever had. Melts my heart into a puddle of goo. 

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Why we won't be watching Sprout, until Halloween is over

Yesterday, when Mister and I were trying to get some work done around the house, we put Sweet Pea in the playpen and turned on Sprout, and toddler friendly channel. (We now have to jail her, because she's learned to climb, but can't quite get down).

I was folding laundry, and Mister was washing dishes. All of a sudden, we heard a blood curdling scream. Mister ran into the front room and Sweet Pea was pointing to the TV, screaming. There was a Party City commercial on, for Halloween. He comforted her and she was fine. 

Today, while I was folding diapers, Mister was playing with Sweet Pea with Sprout on in the background. I was in the other room, and I heard her scream again. I ran out to the front, and that damn commercial was running again! The fact that they even play this commercial on a channel aimed at such young children, just blows my mind.

At the very end of the commercial, there is a sugar skull painted lady, that gets close to the camera and hisses. I think that's what scares Sweet Pea the most. It was scaring her so much, that she would panic when any commercial would come on. So, for now, we'll be sticking to onDemand. Or, no TV at all. 

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Keeping it real

Something I don't talk about on this blog, is my mental health. I used to have another blog where I could let it all out, but a little over a year ago some stuff went down, and I got majorly cyber bullied. So, I took it down, and made this one that just focuses on Sweet Pea. 

The fact of the matter is, I have bipolar disorder. Every summer I go manic, and ever fall/winter, I get depressed. The depression started a little early this year. Like, the same day the mania was ending. The mania was also really rough this year, medicine wasn't helping much at all. The whole point to this, why I'm even bothering saying anything, is this is the reason I haven't been blogging. I am currently too overwhelmed to breathe, and all summer I was too fidgety to sit still to write anything out.

We all do the best we can as parents. I am doing the best I can as a mom, wife, daughter and friend. And most days I feel as though I've failed miserably. Sweet Pea watches too much tv, I don't pay enough attention to Mister, I've let my parents down in every way possible, and I'm such a recluse that I can't make a simple play date with my friends and their kids. 

But, I know I'm doing the best that I can with the cards I was dealt. Just keeping it real.