Sweet Pea is turning 3! In less than a month. I sometimes see her as being so much older, because she acts like it so often.
I've been thinking more and more about gratitude and family. I have an amazing family.
Mister drives me absolutely insane sometimes, but he is so caring and attentive. He does so much for our family, and I take it for granted everyday. He does all the cooking, all the grocery shopping, every single dish that gets washed...is by him. We've got it pretty good.
Then there's Sweet Pea. I am so incredibly lucky to have her. All I ever wanted out of life, was to have a little girl, just like her. And what do I do? I waste her young childhood sleeping, or on the stupid iPad. I definitely take her, and how lucky I am for granted.
There are women out there, men too, that would love to have this family. To have a supportive husband, an amazing little girl...what more could I ask for?
I know I take my mom for granted too, so much. She does an incredible amount for us. I don't take her for granted, like I don't thank her and appreciate her. But I forget sometimes, that other people don't have amazing mom's like I do. Her and I have come such a long way since I was a teenager. We've grown together, and have a wonderful friendship now. I just wish there was more I could do for her, to repay her.
I've also got a large extended family. Two of them, actually. One I don't know very well yet. But the other one, I grew up with. I love spending time with them. It's the highlight of my month, when there's a family function happening.
Our family used to get together all the time. The whole family, all the cousins and aunts/uncles. But now...we get together on the super big holidays. Rarely for anyone's birthday. Christmas and Thanksgiving are the ones I can think of, where most everyone is there.
I personally don't take that big loving and caring family for granted. I know there are people out there that long for a large family like that. We are so lucky to still have everyone in our family.
When people say they don't want to go to a function, or that we have too many of them, it hurts my feelings. I take it personally, because that's our family. You can see your friends any time. But family is different.
You're never going to find a new grandparent, or sister, or brother. Appreciate them. You aren't better than anyone else.
I also have a new family. A biological family. I'm still getting to know them, and I need to reach out more. I just get so nervous, and lately I've been on this constantly cleaning kick, and potty training Sweet Pea (that's only been 3 days, that is absolutely no reason to have not talked to any of them in 2 weeks!)
I'm lucky to have more people to love and who care about me. I enjoy talking to them all. They're all so kind and welcoming. I just suck at reaching out.